Unwritten - Gina Miranda 2018

I follow a script I didn't create.
A life of fear, that I hate.
Expectations that aren't mine.
But it's fine...
I got them from a trusted source,
Reinforced with familial force.
It keeps me safe and loved, right?
So why fight?
It causes fright!
Because they get mean,
When I want to be seen.
So I give in,
And become driven,
To be the best!
Which means no rest!
And I am tired!
But I'm wired,
To comply.
So I pass myself by.
I locked myself up.
And I empty my cup,
I pour into others,
The perpetual mother.
But I am tired,
I need to be rewired.
So I break apart,
Looking for a fresh start,
I begin to shake
Feeling the armor break,
And I collapse,
Emotional relapse,
And I am paralyzed with fear,
And I'm screaming to hear,
To hear my own voice,
Amidst all the noise.
So I become still,
Finding my will,
Hearing my voice,
Above all the noise.
It's fighting to speak,
It's frightening to seek,
Knowing I have a need,
Desires to feed,
Daring to take up space,
To create my own place.
I begin to scream,
As I reclaim my dream.
I clear the slate,
And reset the date,
Return to the start, 
Reconnect with my heart, 
A new beginning this time,
One that is mine,
Let go of fear and rage,
I am now a blank page,
And I will design,
A life that is all mine,
To me I will give,
Permission to live,
Permission to be,
Unconditionally me...
To be love... And be loved.

I am unwritten. 

New Year 2019

Farewell 2018. Welcome 2019.
It’s crazy to think it’s been a whole year in private practise. Last year, at this time I had received some very unsettling news. I was told that Helix Healthcare group, where I worked as a full time employe, was closing asof the end of the year. The team and I had 10 days to notify our clients and find a new place to work. We were graciously allowed to stay in the old offices till the end of January while we sorted ourselves out. As you can imagine it wasn’t a very happy holiday for most of us. I can personally say it was one of the most stressful and overwhelming times of my life.

We were all in various states of shock and disbelief, and we were definitely feeling the stress of it all. But rather than falling apart under the weight of that stress, we banded together and created the Healing Therapy Alliance. 

2018 has been a year of challenges and trials for me, professionally and
personally, as I adjusted to being self-employed and starting a new business. And what I have learned is that those challenges are emotionally overwhelming and exhausting. But that exhaustion creates the opportunity for rest and self care. It allowed me to reach out for support. And that rest allowed me to rebuild myself and restore my strength. And that strength will allow me to face my challenges.

And so, as this year comes to a close, I are grateful for my challenges for they have made me stronger and more resilient. I look forward to the challenges and opportunities that 2019 will bring me as I continue to grow. I am truly honoured and humbled to work with you and look forward to continuing to supporting you on your healing journey.

May we all be blessed with the support and strength we need to face any challenges and opportunities that may come our way in 2019.